To add: there a numerous anecdotes in the story, but this was probably the hardest to read. Sweet Jesus.
The operator's sense of helplessness can be worse when the person on the tracks doesn't actually want to die, Tohman said. A trainman he worked with was once crossing a long viaduct over a high drop when he saw a young woman in the beam of his headlight. No suicide, she began running toward the end of the bridge. The engineer hit the brake but could do nothing more than shriek as the gap between train and girl grew smaller.
"She didn't make it," Tohman said. "That just blew that poor guy away."